I've been in London. No, I didn't see the Queen, but I stayed near her palace (Buckingham, that is.) I love London.
I don't have pictures to share on this computer, but they will be forthcoming soon.
One of my main goals while I was there was to get to the Tate Britain (the pre-1900 collection - most of the post-1900 works are at the Tate Modern), to see the works of J.M.W. Turner. His works, to me, are like pure emotion, the way music is pure emotion. They are like frozen crescendos.
My notes, written in their presence:
J.M.W. Turner. Rage. Light. Ecstacy.
Man vs. Nature. The insignificance of same. Blah, blah, blah. But how does it make you feel? Sublime. Awed. Bubbly in the chest. Like seeing grand and sweeping music frozen on canvas. Like seeing myself. My insides. Light and dark and crashing. Almost, I want to weep. [Okay, I got a little carried away.]
Breaking the haze.
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I went to visit John Constable's work, as well. The two were so competitive, how could I not? His work reminded me of dark fairy tales (are there really any other kind?). I kept looking for the ogre in the idyllic woods. Maybe it was because the day was cloudy, and the Tate relies heavily on natural light. But it seemed to me there was a sadness inherent in his work. I'm not sure I've noticed it before.
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Being in the company of Masters brings my own creative urges to the forefront.
I know all the platitudes about creating one's own life and making one's own luck. And persistence winning the day. And also that it's better to be safe than sorry. I think that last one is the one around which I've been building my life lately. And I am safe. As safe as I can be in this uncertain world. But I'm also a little sorry. Being back in a city where I was young (I spent a semester there as an undergrad) reminds me of what I was like then. Naive, yes. But adventurous. And creative. And I thought I would spend my life being creative. Which I have done, to a certain extent. But I've been concentrating too hard on the safe part. Holding on to steady paychecks and nice clothing. I didn't used to be like that.
I didn't think in terms of what was possible then, only what I wanted to happen. And so a lot of what I wanted materialized. Can I make that happen again? I'm going to try. Perhaps a few visits to the Met are in order.